The last three days I have awoken in tears. I hate feeling this way and even more, I don't understand it. Things are going well. The holidays are finally f***ing over. I love Christmas, and I love the girls and the way they react to all the festivities, but am so happy to have things going back to normal soon. I just want to feel happy inside again. I want the warmth and the security of knowing that I am not going to be in tears for no reason. I just feel so numb and cold... I want my ...
Last night was the perfect family new years. We watched "The Lion King", played Yahtzee, ate junk food, laughed, and watched the ball drop with Dick Clark on channel 4. The girls actually got along, and we all hugged and kissed at midnight. DD2 and DD3 finished thier pizza and went to bed, the rest of us followed by 1:30. If only the rest of the year could go as smoothly... yeah, right! LOL!!
Wow time can sure just zip by can't it! Last week I came down with some sort of flu bug that kicked my ass for 4 days. Not fun! However I have not had a ciggerette since the 13th. I didn't intend on quitting, but it is going ok. Unfortunately though, I have gained weight already. Ick! DB said that if I am serious about this he will get me a gym membership as a reward. I wasn't looking for a reward, but who am I to say no. Also this way he has the control that if we break up, it's not my...
I sent my children back to school in -15* weather. OMG! This is Spokane, Washington ~ Not Colorado! Our high temp today is supposed to be 10*, low -21*. How unreal is that?? The punchline of the whole report, the snowstorm comes tomorrow. Yes tomorrow they are expecting another 3-6 inches. The good news is that I have the house to myself again! Whoohooo! 2 weeks of Christmas vacation just seems so long at the end. Unlike summer they get so bored during the winter. DD1 did some of...
It has been snowing for the last 2 days almost straight through. Snow is so decieving! I love the way everything appears to be so peaceful, beautiful, tranquil even. But then you step outside and it is cold, uncomfortable, ick!! Currently there is a car stuck in the snow right outside my apt. So far 3 good samaritans are trying to dig the car out of the snowbank that it has high centered and stuck on. Looks like they attached the big chains and got her out. See what I mean about decieving...
Another year is almost over. In 2003 I was able to improve the importand things in my life. Last year at this time I was in a miserable relationship, trapped within my own home. Now T. is out of my life for good, I have my own place, my own car, and MY girls are doing so much better! They too, were so unhappy at this time last year. For the coming year: My main two gaols are finding a job, and losing some wieght. I know that it is so typical but it is true. This year I will do better...